Back To Where We Begin

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Its now back to where we begin. Still a bit not getting over it. Trying very hard to get over it. The 1st day I am back to Malaysia on 240909 which marks my birthday am very tiring. Tears drop only when I was about to step into cars in KLIA car park. Uncontrollably .......

Called her up and told her I misses her and a bunch of friend very much. Feeling so weird going back again to her normal life. Sailing all the way back to my home, chatted thru with my bf all the way home.

The moment I was to step into my house, I shouted "I am back" !! Screaming voice is all I could heard. I cant stop my tears from dropping and it was unexpected at all. I thought I would have cried in the airport or plane. Neither do I, but unexpectedly I had my tear dropping from my eyes. Overjoy and sorrow on what had happen to my family recently.

In the eve family celebrated my bday at home with a cakes and dinner. Tiring day but later at night when out to meet my ji mui and friends and having another birthday blast in friend's shop. This is how my big day when thru .......

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Had all days sleeping till almost dawn and waking up having dinner at Mamak with cousin sis. Since couldnt sleep at night, staying awake with my sweetie lap top till 6am the next day. Had all my days almost upside down on the beginning.

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Not feeling well as having a slight sore thoats, flu and headache. Wake up at 5pm and sleep again at 1230am till the next morning.

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Accompanying dad to hospital. Realised dad looks 10 years older from his age after a very long fever last 2 weeks. Dad is very weak and not like last time. When to GH today and realized something. I used to accompany mom to GH last time and dad was the one who fetch us. But it was the other way round now. I am so sad we didn't sent dad for body check up previously. It was now all in a go. Might be the awareness is not with us all the while. Dad was so fit all the while and been in RELA actively. Pray sickness is all away from my family and things would turn better in the future. I was being attracted on a signboard in the hospital. Mom asked me to see doctor together with dad. But due to laziness and the crowd I was hold back from seeing doc. There's a notice on H1N1- have you been traveling to the list of country below in the last 7 days in Malay? :-

America UK Swiszerland
Sepanyol Jerman
Belanda Itali

and etc and experiencing fever, flu, cough, headache, sore throats, bodyache, vomitting and etc. If yes, please seek for medical help. I was a lil worried. What if I would be quarantine by the hospital if I were to inform I has just came back from UK within 7 days!! So worried hopefully can quickly recover from illness. I 've been very lucky. I was so afraid and scare I would have fall sick in UK . bUT lucky that I have never fall sick during my time in UK and only fall sick when I was back in Malaysia. Thanks to my body for cooperating. :)

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I am sleeping again the whole day like I had never woke up again. I SLEEP and sleep and sleep like there's never a tomorrow. Am so tired and lifeless. I am telling to myself, i NEED to stand up again and need to get over it. I still miss Uk life and friends but never get over it till now. Feeling laziness is all around. Finally touched on the luggage. Almost a week still haven't finish unload my stuffs haha. Wanna have a big house keeping on my room. Things are real messy as I don't remember where I kept my stuffs-my money! Don't know where I keep my foreign currency and things are everywhere and things doesn't belong to me also appear everywhere. Headache .......

Darling fall sick today and just fetch him to clinic just now. Makes me recall of UK car again. The signal and the viper is on the opposite side in Malaysia. Nearly press on the wrong side of signal just now. Silly ... and mades me recall of UK.

Nothing much to expect anymore but to wait for the other time to comes. Next were to expect to look for a good job and thinking about future in this few days. Another important turning point again in my life. :)

Nothing is permanent friend. Bear with it for another few more weeks and you will eventually get over it. But you need to help yourself too. No one could help you but only you !